With the New Year come everyone’s resolutions. Most of which, fail. Mine included. I’m a cynic. Many goals I set for myself are never accomplished. But, my grandma has taught me a valuable lesson this season of life – that you will never be finished. It’s a thought I’ve been pondering the past few days. Chewing at really, because I hate it. That feeling of never being done. Yet, as she has told me, in life there is always something else to do, something else to strive for, something else to finish. We never really are ‘done.’
I’m a list-maker. The satisfaction of marking completed tasks off my list gives me thrills. Unfortunately, having an incomplete list leaves me feeling like a failure. I’m the type who would rather not make a list that I know I will not finish. Thus, I’ve stayed away from New Year’s Resolutions, because I always end up missing the mark. Thinking through my grandma’s advice, I’m learning life isn’t necessarily about checking off my to-do lists. It’s more about the actual process of living. Knowing that I will never get everything done and that this can be okay is such a feeling of freedom. As a perfectionist, I’m still struggling to cut myself some slack. I can drive myself crazy attempting to get it all done, or I can do what I can, continue to push myself, and enjoy the moments I have…even those I don’t finish.
It’s not about giving up entirely and avoiding all work, but neither should it be completely exhausting myself trying to live up to my unachievable expectations. So, with this new year, I’ve made a new to-do list of resolutions. It begins with learning to enjoy each day whether or not my list is checked off and learning to live contently as a limited human being, resting in the fact that I can only do so much. And there is beauty in my limitations. Because, this is where Christ steps in.
To prevent my blog post from being extremely long and also giving myself time to go into detail about my resolutions, I’m going to list them here and then describe them each separately in their own post this week. So, stay tuned!
Sara (now) Norton-Sanner’s 2013 Resolutions:
1. Blog more about current world issues to raise awareness.
2. Potty-train our little girl – Suruchi the puppy.
3. Make new friends.
5. Begin writing a novel.
6. Pack my lunch each day and donate lunch money to a hunger ministry.
7. Go to Thailand.
8. Finish praying through “Operation World: The Definitive Prayer Guide to Every Nation”
What are you doing this year?