New Year’s Resolution #5

Begin writing a novel.

I mention all of the time that I’m a writer.  I do write.  I post blogs sometimes, when I can remember.  I write for work on a daily basis.  I used to journal everyday.

But I rarely write for fun anymore…

Life just catches up with you.  I don’t have the time like I once did.  Something about a full time job, a three bedroom house to clean and having a husband.  I love all those things, don’t get me wrong!  Yet, time just seems to pass me by and I never get all the words I want to down on paper (or in most cases, typed onto my computer screen).

It has always been a goal of mine, even when I was a little girl, to write a novel.  One of my favorite hobbies has been reading.  When I read, I’m drawn into a different world to build relationships with the characters and learn lessons from them.  As silly as it sounds, I would attribute a large portion of my wisdom to fictional stories.  Yes, they are fake characters, but I can relate to their struggles and joys.  I can learn from their mistakes and benefit from their advice.

My favorite genre was Christian fiction, particularly romance or mystery.  This was because I could see (or read) characters who submitted their lives to God, in each and every circumstance of their lives.  I had some pretty amazing role models throughout my life.  But, the women in my novels could be around anytime I needed them.  My fictional characters filled the gaps during those times I didn’t have a mentor to look up to.

My desire in writing a novel is to put something down on paper that can help others in the same way that I have been helped through stories.  My head is full of ideas and outlines.  I’ve even started writing three different books in the past.  But, most of me has been too afraid of failure.

If I put my heart and soul down onto paper, and other people see it.  What are they going to think?

Will I be judged if no one likes it?  Will anyone even care to read it?  Is there any way that I can write such a compelling story that others can actually relate and learn from it?

This year…I’m going to push aside these fears.

I’m going to finally do it!  I am going to write a novel.  Or at least begin writing a novel.  Getting started is the most difficult step.

I would love to be able to write a best seller and become a career novelist.  I just don’t know if that will ever happen.  I may finish a story and completely fall on my face.  But, I will never know if I don’t try.  And I can’t shake this gnawing feeling inside of me that I have to try.  My passion for writing just will not go away, so it’s time that I do something about it.


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